无题.

今天,我又遇到了挫折.

就一个情侣手表，我竟然设计不上来.

砸烂了头还是想不到D:..

就一个concept一个idea..酱难吗?..

为什么?..为什么就是什么都想不到..

创意?..我似乎真的没有

8am的课..老师就要检查我们的设计.结果现在 4.19am.

我做是做了..可是我在做什么了..什么烂设计..!连我自己都觉得难看的东西.如果是一张纸.

我肯定会发狂的把它捏烂撕掉拿火烧掉!

怒火摧残下..我洗掉了这个烂设计..

等一下的课不去上了.

上了也没设计图交给老师.

还去来干嘛..

去撞墙算了.

空白的头脑,什么Idea都想不到..在这里博个屁格！

我很开朗?..错了.是假装的.

想找个人哭诉.找个避风港躲着..

想哭.

蔡伟权..你就这点料吗?..

蔡伟权..你选对了科?..平面设计真的适合你这没脑的白痴?.

Gasp.

It was a busy week for last week..haihhh..although I m in melacca now..still worrying about my works there..worry for presentation tomorrow><..The worst is just came back melacca yesterday and need heading to KL 1 more hour laterD;.

First time i rushed lost to TIME..haihh..umbelievable..

This exercise was traced from a real picture using AI..but because of I was lost to TIME.So I did it simply at last, dont think i can get any nice marksD;.

After lost,it was no time for me to self-blame even..

start rushing for another assignmentsD;..This time i worry will lost again to TIME so i skip one of my class..

Who will know the lecturer check the attendance immediately ?! and my frenz who help me to sign kena lu..>.<

lecturer ask for a letter why she want sign for me?-.-..no idea,I m the guy who should write it now..zzz..and sorry lu my fren:X

Used 15 hours to complete thiso,O

and 2 hours for this-.-..arcylic paint..first time use..LOL..I think have to redo-.-

Finally i can take a deep breathe after all this..stand on balcony..

While I was looking at sunset..It recall my memories in singapore,when I was waiting to go in to snsd concert. I miss taeyeonO,O

And it was taeyeon birthday in friday..:)

I was busy and this is only what I can do for taeyeonD;

Friday leh..But it is still middle of weekday for me..haihh..what stupid saturday class..haihhhhh...Ms.Wee,I not scolding u but UTAR menagement..I knew u are kind to usD;

Saturday morning morning i already wake up..waiting to go back melacca..and someone put me aeroplane~..write here purposely let her see..let her see jor then ashamedxD..

last last week work?..hahahahhahahaha-.-

Anythings that never happen as your wish in real..Just dream for it?.

Dream.

After tried so many times just i success produced this 2 postcard..

Worst rite?..);

Hope can get a not so low geh marks D;

Not hard at concept and idea but the photo hard to find..LOL-.-

Title: DREAM

Dream is a wish your heart makes. meaningful?..rubbish sentence ?:/

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26/2/2012 星期日
是开心的咯!..一睡醒看到时钟就很开心:D 好久都没有睡到十点多才起来了T.T
一个星期就只有那么一天可以那么做..*sigh.....

25/2/2012 星期六
今天上完课后,把一并该做的事都做了就出去了..去呼吸!
KLCC里，跟我多个月不见的好友,我们三个人第一站就是吃!
吃完后就去kinokuniya..在里面逛了很久..看到很多书..可是书券没用到..==

                                             原来kinokuniya里还有一个酱的view.

下一站就是我每去KLCC就必去的贡茶:)

milk tea green tea:)

在pasar seni, 我们穿横了茨场街..好多人好热..-.-

之后本该各自回到wangsa maju 和PJ 的..可是好像很舍不得这么久才见一次面的朋友.

我们在pasar seni lrt station 看左看右,向左走还是向右走?.

在masjid jamek lrt station 看左看右,向左走还是向右走?.

最后终于决定去吃了晚餐才分开..

结果我们又回到了KLCC,然后走去pavilion.

是一条很漫长的路.看着我那两个朋友,突然觉得漫长的路有朋友陪伴就不会觉得太漫长了:)

在pavilion吃了一顿,也太咸了呗老板..==

吃了后又到了天下无不散的筵席的时刻了,各奔东西了..不知何时才会再相遇了朋友.

坐在lrt里,很累..

在amcorp mall 里,朋友在POPULAR找东西买..:/

在asia jaya的巴士站,不知巴士几点才回来.

十点正,走在回家的上坡路上.漆黑一片.担心抢匪突然出现?.><

坐在房间里电脑前,刚才淋了二十分钟的花洒.zz

累是累，可是累得值得:)

回到现实生活.

最近好像养成了叹气的习惯,从外婆去世后到今天我几乎每天都会叹气..

感觉真的海啸要来了..开始繁忙起来了.
下个星期就来了两个考试.还有一大堆的功课要做.全部的deadline 都挤在一起..

今天应该是一个从早做到完的一天了..stress!

最近洗澡的时间变更久了..一直站在花洒下感受被水淋得感觉..这好像变成我唯一的舒压方法了..
真的想去淋雨...haihh.

一句话.

每个人都用自己的方式，走自己的路。曾经亲密无间，又或渐行渐远。我们都是时间的过客，喜怒哀乐不过数十载。何不活在当下，知足常乐 :)

一错再错.

外婆方才下午去世了,而我却犯了一个一错再错的错误而失去了见她最后一面的机会D;

一个一个我最亲的长辈陆续的离开我.这种感觉真的很痛.然而我还继续犯错!!干吗的我!!

昨天收到外婆病危在加护病房的消息,感觉已经很不好了,可是真的没想到一切就发生得这么快这么突然. 

今天一早去上了课..10.21am,接到表弟的电话说外婆不行了,医生已经拔管了,正从医院转移回家的路上.就打电给妈告诉她我上完课就回去,打电给二姐他们.结果他们说等他们一起回..我应该拒绝的D; 我应该想起公公在拔管的那一秒就立刻断气了!笨透了我!结果等他们等到12.30pm.的时候收到信息说外婆去世了!!D;我应该马上回去的.一切都还来得及..迟了,我做了一个错的决定T.T 边驾车边哭..哭到不行了..终于等到哥姐他们了,结果既然是我们分别驾车回..那我干吗等他们?!!天!!一切都迟了..去到外婆家..第一眼..看见外婆躺在床上..很安详的样子..我的脑子一直告诉我外婆只是在睡觉,她会醒来的..她会醒来的..等她醒来叫我的名字..阿权..

我没等到..潜意识告诉我她不会醒来了..她永远离开我们了..眼泪流了..一直擦一直流.不知流到何时..流到不会再流了..我才离开了外婆的房间.这种感觉真的难受..坐在客厅,像个木头人..一句话也说不出口..

外婆一直都是个很坚强的人..一直都活得很健康的..外公前一年的离去看来真的给了她很大的打击..记得外公的葬礼她撑到最后一天才哭..这也是我这一生中唯一看见她哭的一次. 

自责..真的很自责..最亲的四老离开我时都是没能见到他们最后一面T.T

最后一次见到外婆是上个星期的事..从来没想过我随眼看外婆的那一眼会是我们的最后一次.为何我就这样无知..不懂得珍惜我们每一次的见面谈话..D;

记得有一次爸妈去中国了,把车留在外婆家.从KL回来的我就去外婆家拿车..结果车启动不到.需要等到隔天才能修好.只好在外婆家待着等朋友来载我..外婆,我真的很想念我们俩坐在餐桌聊天的感觉.是真的很想念.能不能再给我这样的机会?..T.T 记得你还帮我付了修车费..我欠你的实在太多了..今生是没机会报答你了..来生我还是当你的孙子,你还是我的外婆好吗?

哭了..不写了..只是想把心里的感受都写出来.这样会好受一点?..不知道..

星期五出殡了..明天我却得回到KL去赶功课..去上课..真的很想翘课..可是堂堂课都是翘不得的D;

惟有等到星期三晚上再回去..失去亲人的感觉,真的很难受.

悠悠雨思,寸寸断肠 D;

外婆..请原谅我的不孝.

Mixed feelings.

Only in few days..I had already visited heaven and hell=.= ..
I went for my cousin's present with my another cousin before back to KL..hmm..it's was Tuesday.
After a long time considering..we bought this..hope she will like it:)

Middle of looking for the present,I bought somethings for myself..:) with a cheaper price.

hmm..after that, we went Nadeje for a super duper early hi-tea..=.=and skip our lunch..LOL..And a auntie jumped the queue..Kind people must be come with a reward..:) I just gave her some space and reward with a nadeje card with 5 stamps..:D

My cousin was enjoying make the cake be her model..HAHA!

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Early in the morning, I had enter my class for the replacement class..damn tired..Although it is healthy,but everyday 8am class really suffer la D;..saturday also need attend class..pekcek-.-
We get informed that we need to ready acrylic paint for next week work..ishhh..expensive a..no money for thatD;..think to use book voucher for that..But, someone helped me:) she actually can count as my senior?==" Anyways, appreciate her kindness very much:D..tot wanna borrow or buy from her..But she said just give me foc..tq very much!!!:D she gave me even the brush and the palette knives:D

Because of her..I have some extra money left..:) And we went sunway pyramid summore in the same day..

two of them went to cut hair..one of them go shopping..and all of them went to use the book vouchers..And I went for nothing..LOL..went be driver?..waste my petrol?..zz..I m poor la guys..aiyoyo..give me some allowance?..:/

Actually...new year decoration here quite nice a..why didn't see any posts in facebook about it?:S

And we went piccadilly for our dinner..fried nasi lemak seriously nice taste:)

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Ok..Happiness had stopped here..Sad case happened today..I kena saman D;..

damn unlucky..I was one step late to stop the police to saman my carD;

Can u understand the feelings saw the police saman ur car when u are pass by your car at the same time..T.T The most worst is when i told my mama about this..Her respond was just angry but very calm..I hope she can scold me sincerely this time..D; I will feel better if she did..

My extra left money have gone..even no enough for it..D;..need eat maggi mee for how many weeks?..D; sigh..

last nice food for me?..D;

seapark nasi lemak.

Haiz..this is my life..always hang around heaven and hell..D;

my homework and assignments is coming slowly wave to wave..What i can do is just ready to stand in front the tsunami and face it..><

And let show my first work. Get compliment from my lecturer summore..hope she will give the high marks beside compliment.><

ps:I received a bad news from my mama just now when i called her.She told me that my grandma was in pantai hospital..the cause is she can't breathe smoothly..The most worst is she in ICU this time..hope she can recover as soon as possible..She was my only left dear grandparents..I can't lose anyone in my life anymore.. please.